Love Yourself Before AND After

December 17, 2015

Am I the only person that can look at pictures from years ago and remember exactly how I felt about my body in that moment of time? I do this with so many pictures. I look at them and can remember if I felt pretty, uncomfortable, chunky, thin, or just blah. The picture on the left is from Fake Patty’s Day 2007. I was at my heaviest. I remember being incredibly uncomfortable and insecure with my body that day. I tried layering on multiple tight undershirts to see if that’d make me feel better about myself, make me feel skinnier. The picture on the right is from a few weeks ago in LA. I was checking myself out the night before the 21DF photo shoot... And guess what? I felt incredibly uncomfortable and insecure. Before I go any further, I DON’T want pity posts or any type of positive reinforcement (I’m incredibly proud of my body and my progress), that’s not the point of this post. The point is this: If we don’t learn to love ourselves for everything that OUR body is and isn’t WITHOUT comparing it to other people, we’ll never feel comfortable in our own skin. Had you told the girl on the left that she’d someday be a size 0 she would have jumped up and down with joy, but in reality it doesn’t matter what size you are if you compare yourself to other people. You’ll always find something wrong with yourself, you’ll always feel inadequate. We have to learn to love and accept OUR bodies no matter what size they are, and until we do we’ll feel insecure and uncomfortable. Like I said, I’m proud of the progress that I’ve made with my body, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t ever feel insecure. It’s in those moments I have to remind myself just how far I’ve come, how hard I’ve worked, and that I was enough BEFORE and I’m enough AFTER.

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